I finally decided to start a blog. Why, because I can, because no-one knows who I am and because I want to.

They say that everyone has a good tale to tell - why should I be any different. I am coming to a time of my life where I want to record what I did, what I said, how I felt. Is that vain of me.. I don't know. What I do know is, the person that is writing this blog is not the person known to the people that know me.... even the ones that think they truly know me.

I sometimes feel like some sort of mad schizophrenic, except I'm not mad, I don't think! Maybe I am? I seem to be different people to different people. I spend my life trying to be this multiple one size fits all sort of person, to some I am a "goody goody butter wouldn't melt" sort of person. To others I am the game for a laugh, couldn't care less, let's have a ball sort of person - but to me I am this scared little girl running round in circles trying to be what everyone wants me to be. Wanna laugh, I can do that, wann Miss Perfect, I can do that too, wanna woman that doesn't care less, does what she wants (thats a laugh for a start) roll up roll up see this girl in action.

Who am I.... I really have no idea. So, I have decided to write it all down... maybe it will all make sense then. Who knows...maybe I'll discover the real me.